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Player Name: Sleight
Player Pronouns: He/Him
Player Contact: PM/SleightsOfHand
Player Age: 21+

Character Name: Allen Walker
Canon: D.Gray-man
Canon Point: Chapter 251
Age: Aged up to 18 (nebulously 17ish in canon with a 30+ year old soul...)
Species: Human..ish. One of his inhuman parts is split off (Nea) as he's a separately appable character in his original body.
Journal: likethelight 
Permissions: Here

Goals: Allen is literally a character of goals personified, even if they keep shifting over the course of the series. While he begins with two concrete and very simple ones, "don't stop, keep walking" as he is a character who has nearly drowned in despair so many times that promise is sometimes the only thing that keeps him going, and the desire to save all akuma, the twisted creations powered by despairing human souls that the rest of the world no longer sees as human or deserving any sort of peace or mercy. But with the canon point I am taking him from, he is far more desperate and has a much more basic goal: he desperately needs to understand his own truth, who he is, and what the memories he's had stolen from him are. To the point where he just exchanged what he was fully aware may be his life in exchange for knowing the truth of his origin at the point I'm taking him from.

Morals: Being a shounen protagonist in particular, Allen has an unwaveringly strong moral compass. Even if he frequently fails and doubts himself and has to adapt and change and grow, his core morality (and kindness) never sway. He explains it as not being because of any grand ideals or anything noble, but because if someone in front of him is suffering and he can do anything about it, he can't help but be moved to help them. It's compulsive and baked into his core.

HOWEVER... his morality is also very selective (to comedic effect). As a scrappy street urchin, he knows that in order to survive you sometimes have to do some very unsavory things, and he has elevated card-sharking to an artform of thinly veiled theft. But it all falls within his own very well-formed sense of "fair's fair", where if someone has it coming he can be very underhanded, but he would never rip off someone kind or who is also very poor off. It ties in with him being very judgmental and righteous at times, coming down hard on people who act arrogantly or cruelly, but staunchly backing those who are of gentler disposition or bullied.

Struggles: Allen has 251 chapters of continued struggling and it just keeps getting worse... Classically someone who literally never gets a break and gets any comfort or sense of normality ripped away from him the moment he has it, struggle is all he knows. Physically when his left arm was a useless club that had him repeatedly bullied, abused, and sold off to the circus as a toddler (though we now know that was likely a lie he was told/false memory), and mentally and emotionally he's an orphan who has suffered every abuse possible and lost everything important to him time and time again—and blamed himself for it with a guilt complex that led to him wanting to lay down and die more than once. And not even without rather valid reason, his violent actions and immaturity while being superpowered as a child full of rage did directly result in the death of the only person who ever showed him kindness that he loved... twice. And that guilt still haunts his actions and results in his borderline suicidal actions and frequent self-sacrificial behavior. His current state in canon has him losing his very soul and identity to another being that is erasing him, and so he struggles just to keep going to live for as long as he can against impossible odds in the simple hope that maybe, one day, his struggle might also inspire someone else to struggle on when it seems hopeless.

He will literally never get a break and listing all of his struggles would be a full essay. DGM is a tragedy horror mystery that will almost certainly end in his death, or being somehow forever alone.

Position: The worst student as he's never been to any formal schooling and can barely write his name!!! The worst!!! Which he will try to get out of by being a part-timer extraordinary in every shitty campus job he can take. Until he realizes he's not getting paid. (I presume they don't get paid.)

Explanation:


Introspective Writing Sample: TDM top level
Interactive Writing Sample: Deer network post