App for Penumbra

PLAYER

Name: Sleight
Pronouns: He/him
Contact: Discord, SleightsOfHand
Triggers: Massive phobia of insect horror, and sexualizing mentor/student relationships or sexual/romantic relationships with large age gaps (but I don't foresee that really being an issue here)
Other Characters: Nope

Link to Invitation: here

CHARACTER

Name: Allen Walker
Canon: D.Gray-man
Canonpoint: Chapter 251
Age: Nebulously 17ish (he doesn't know, we barely know, technically he's 50ish but was de-aged/reborn and forgot his memories prior to that)

Powers & Abilities: Panfandom-friendly write-up, DGM powers are complex. In canon he has the ability to summon an interdimensional travel cube of a city (Noah's Ark) that obviously he cannot use here since it is game-breaking, but also since Nea/the 14th will no longer be in his body since they are an appable character themselves he won't have access to any of those powers, which include controlling the Ark.

QUESTIONS

1. What is their worst fear? Why do they fear it?
He is terrified of others being hurt because of him -- or by him. Because it happened. He already killed his father-figure, the first and one of the only people to ever be kind to him because he lost control of his temper as a child without knowing his own power, and then later corrupted that man's soul and had to destroy the undead thing he became again later when he missed him so much he let himself be tricked into summoning him back as an akuma. The guilt has warped his entire life.

Even though he tries to pretend otherwise, he is terrified of being alone as well. Even if his guilt complex makes him try to forever separate from others and lead a lonely life.

2. What kind of person could they love? Do they have any bonds already?
He is literally the joined souls of two men who loved each other so much it defied oblivion. Allen loves humanity and so very many people who wholly it is one of the defining traits he has, the ability to see the good and the humanity in others even when it is very hard to, and to have compassion for them even when they are at odds or they do things he hates. He wears his heart on his sleeve with friends and found family, and walks a fine line of being open and affectionate with those he cares for while managing to still hold them just arms-length enough from truly knowing him and or letting the weight he carries burden them.

The people he becomes closest to are ones that are morally and in demeanor similar to him, gentle and kind-natured people. Romantically this is what he would find attractive as well, people who are welcoming, loving, kind -- and who are also lonely/sad. He has a small crush on Lenalee in canon because of this, and she has become a defining reason for even his will to continue existing, but he buries it and for a great many reasons would never act on it. Any romance at all he would oppose/suppress/deny and it would take a mountain of character development to get over, and he is canonly very cagey about the topic.


3. What is their greatest weakness? What makes them weak?
Allen had a history of being very passive when it came to the big life decisions he made, getting pushed around more like a pawn than making them himself. He would redefine them in ways where he would take ownership of them, but ultimately his indecisiveness led to a lot of problems in canon. Part of his character development has been him beginning to make more and more decisions for himself even if they run contrary of others, as he would always stand up for others and interject on their behalf but rarely would do so for himself or when it came to deciding what he, Allen Walker, himself wanted vs. what he was told. Much of the problems going on in the war in his world right now are a result of him being reactive and not understanding nor ever truly trying to understand himself and the forces at play in the mystery of his origin, and it's something he's in the process of trying to finally address and be better about.

He chronically has an issue of choosing "both" when offered an either/or situation as well. And while plot armor has let him break the rules repeatedly without having that one really bite him in the ass yet, it's due to.

He also has a martyr-complex and occasional suicidal ideation, and it can become a slippery slope without others to slap him out of it.



4. What would be their worst way to die?

Alone.

Samples:

TDM top level
Old/different TDM with more comments